As I switched through the channels aimlessly, (channel surfing, I believe its called) I saw that HBO was playing Mission Impossible II. Though I had seen it more than once before I decided to stop my ’surfing’ there. As I sat there looking at Tom Cruise I felt something was wrong. I just knew it but couldn’t place my finger on what it is. Thought it must be just a weird feeling and ignored it. But trust me, it kept coming back. Then I knew what it was!! Yes! My heart no longer skipped a beat when I saw Tom Cruise in action!!! Now you might ask whats the big deal in that. Well the deal is, less than a year back I would have felt a lot different when I am watching a Tom Cruise movie. How come its different now? Whats changed? Age? Experiences? Maturity? (No way!). Then what is it?
I sat down to think. Not something I do much but yet I decided to do it that day. I started thinking and I realised. There is no particular answer. Its just time. Time changes us all. Its different from age because these changes do no happen at a particular age. It happens at a particular time. Sadly that time is here in my life. I no longer swoon over Tom Cruise. Sigh..
I had to stop with that last Friday when I was originally typing this post and my thought process was clearer then. Though I am all set to write now, can’t continue on this topic, sadly..
Is it not because we now admire the heroism rather than the hero..may be because we saw the world, got the meaning, got a little stoical accepting things without as much excitement/anxiety which we possibly had years before.
i may sound immature but is is bcoz hes ‘almost’ married now and is ‘almost’ a father now?